Por Fin Juntos Denuevo

Peace after the storm...

2010-03-06T21:58:00.000-08:00

Peace after the storm OR NOT!!!!

So as I said on my last post, the judge terminated hubby's removal proceedure thank God, you would all think this would defenetly be the peace after the storm but....

All of a sudden I started having panic attacks.. I had never in my entire life felts these and let me tell you if you have never experienced them, they are the WORST feeling ever.

It all started on Wednesday, I went to pick up my son to the boys & girls club. Hubby had already picked up our daughter from the sitters and the were home. So I am driving home after picking up Julian and all of a sudden I start feeling sick. I feel like my chest is closing in on me, my throat gets thight and I feel like it's going to choke me. I start freaking out kuz i'm driving and I have my seven yr old with me. I call my hubby and tell him to come downstairs that I am ion my way home to get ready so as soon as i get there he can take me to the emergency room. By this point I am so scared that i'm having a heart attack and that i'm going to die. So I get home, he starts driving me to the hospital, our kids are in the back seat. Then I panic more and tell him to stop, what if I have a heart attack while we are on the freeway and we end up having an accident. So I tell him to call an ambulance better and so he does as we ar on the phone making that 911 call I am crying telling them to hurry up and send an ambulance that i'm having a heart attack and that I don't wanna die. My chest is tightening up, there something in my throat that is choking me someone please HELP!!! I swear that I erally thought I was going to die.

So paramedics get there, and they check me out they say my heart is ok and if i've had a pannic attack, so I start yelling at them that no this is not a panic attack i'm about to have a heart attack please help me. They are so cal, checking me out & I am so pissed off and scared kuz I just know i'm going to die and they are not doing anything to stop what is happening to me.

Finally we get to the hospital, they do blood work on me, a chest xray, they connect me to the EKG or what ever it's called and mmm yes they were right I was not having a heart attack. It sure was a panic attack. My 1st time ever having one and it was a big one let me tell you. So I get to come home a lil more relaxed.

The next day all is well, I go about my usual day, take the kids to school, go to work. While at workl I hear someone running up the stairs and there i go again, panicking all over again, This time I was able to control myself and tell myself that everything was A ok :)

When it was time to come home, I got in my car, turned it on and as soon as I did I started panicking again. Ever since I start getting them over nothing, not as bad as the first one, but still scary enough.

Now if I would of started getting this 2 yrs ago when our legal problems first started or last year when we didn't know what the outcome with immigration was going to be I would of been like that's why I'm getting them kuz of all the stress, but now why am I getting them now? After our storm is over and we finally have peace? Why must I go thru this now? Just sitting here typing this has me with a bi.g lump in my throat and I feel like i'm going to choke on it.

The doctor gave me some pills to take and even though they do relax me, they make me feel like i'm not myself I feel really weird when I do take them. I hope I can overcome this and be able to be my old self again.

At last it's over

2010-02-01T11:02:00.000-08:00

I am so happy!!!! Our case got terminated! We have been blessed, the judge ruled in our favor thank God.

My computer is down @ home so i'm here at work & can't be on much so I will def. come back in a few days and write some more.
THANK YOU ALL who had us in your prayer, you all will continue to be in mine too.

and so it's been a year now...

2009-12-29T21:47:00.000-08:00

Dec 29, 2009.....

A year ago today I was scared, depressed, sad, did I mention scared? Last Dec 29 was my day to turn myself in... it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. I knew that it was something I had to do, well as they sy you play you gotta pay. And so it was so that I had to pay. I was scared more than anything because I did not know what was going to happen with my hubbys case while I was gone. As he had court in January while I was going to be locked up. I was really scared of what would happen if he were to be deported while I was serving my time. I had been sentenced to 180 days, out of that I knew I had to do atleast 120 days. It was very hard having to say good bye to my kids, as I knew I wouldn't see them in all that time. I didn't want them to see me in jail, or even to know I was there. All that time they thought I was working in Colorado.

I remember clearly that evening, hubby went to drop me off at 7pm, it was a Monday. They didn't take me in till 9pm, and they had me downstairs in booking till 9am the next morning. As soon as they took me upstairs to a cell I feel asleep and slept all day long, I tried to sleep all day & night kuz when ever I was awake all I would do is cry.

I was in a cell by myself until the beggining of Feb, all that time that I was alone I spent reading the bible & reading everything and anything that was available to me. That way my day would go by so fast. By this time hubby had gone to court and they had given him another court date for June, I was to be out by mid April, so I was able to relax and not worry about what would happen.

While there I meet quite a few girls, it is so sad to be locked up, but more sad to be locked up and not know when and if you will ever be out. I went in knowing that I would be out in fur months, but there are people there that are fighting their cases and don't even know when they will be out, if they will be at all. I always pray for all of them, and since I've been out I've been writting to them, and sending them cards on the holiday, and their birthdays. It is heartbreaking to go thru these holidays knowing that they are all still there, specially for the ones that have kids. I am no one to judge any of them, and wheather they commited the crimes they are there for or not, I will always be praying for them and writting to them. I do hope and pray that they get to come out soon to their families.

I got to come home to my family on April 18, 2009. That experience away from my kids & hubby really taught me to treasure what I have. All this drama that hubby and I are going thru has brought us closer & stronger. We know we got ourselfs where we are, we know we are not perfect, and we have learned from our mistake. A very costly mistake. One that we can never take back. We are paying for it, and probably will for the rest of our lives, But we are both strong and have gotten so far, and with God's help we will keep on going.

As of today we still have no word on his case. But we are very hopefull that things will work out in our favor. For we know God has a plan for us, and we are patiently waiting for it.

At a time of joy we are in sorrow

2009-12-25T23:32:00.000-08:00

So it was Sunday night about 10:30 pm, I was on line reading some posts when I get a call on my cell. I check and see that it is hubby's cousin Paul. He never ver calls me so I knew something was up. I answer the phone and sure enough it is bad news, he tells me mi Julian had passed away. Mi Julian is my hubbys maternal grandfather. But honestly I loved him like if he was my own grandfather. We named my son Julian after him. I know that always when people pass everyone says so & so was such a great person, pero honestly truth be told Mi Julian was a great person.

It really saddens me that he passed away and we didn't get to see him. It had been 2 1/2 yrs since we had seen him. He was here in the states last in June of 07, he was here when we had our wedding blessed.

The saddest part of this all is that hubby couldn't go due to our case not being resolved yet. It killed me to see how upset hubby was due to this. Mi Julian would come often to the States to visit, and he would stay here for months at a time, but since 2007 he was not able to come back to visit.

He passed away in Jocotepec, and they had his service in Las Trojes, Jalisco. In all the 14 yrs I have been together with hubby, I have yet to go visit El Rancho! Now when I do I will for ever be saddend that I never went when Mi Julian was still alive. He used to love attending Los Torros, and I am sure if I had gone to Mex he would of taken me to see them May he Rest In Peace.

Mi Julian you will always be in our hearts!

We will miss you always!

Dia de la Virgen De Guadalupe

2009-12-12T11:06:00.000-08:00

December 12th is an important date in our culture because on this date the Virgin of Guadalupe (La Virgen de Guadalupe) first made an appearance in 1531.

According to church historians, an indigenous Mexican named Juan Diego was walking past a hill called Tepeyac on the outskirts of the Spanish settlement what is now Mexico City, in the beginning of December 1531, when a vision of the Virgin Mary appeared. She instructed him to go to the Bishop (Father Juan de Zumárraga), and deliver her request that a church be built in her honor on the spot.

Juan Diego faithfully went to the Bishop, who dismissed his history and told him to come back the next day. The next day the Bishop asked him a number of questions about the vision of the Virgin Mary, and told him that he needed to bring some proof of her appearance.

Juan Diego return to the hill and asked the Virgin Mary to give him a sign. She said that if he came to the hill the next day, she would give him a sign for the bishop. However, Juan Diego’s uncle Juan Bernardino was on his deathbed, and Juan Diego stayed the entire day with him.

The next morning, Juan Diego left to look for a priest to administer last rites to his uncle, and encountered the Virgin on the road. She sent him to the top of the Tepeyac hill to gather flowers, even though roses didn’t grow there in December. On the hill Juan Diego gathered a bunch of roses, which he brought back to the Virgin Mary. She held them for a moment and then told him to bring them to the bishop. He wrapped them in his tilma (overcloak) woven of manta (a traditional natural fiber similar to linen) and carried them to the bishop. When Juan Diego unbundled the roses for the bishop, everyone was amazed to see that the image of the Virgin Mary had miraculously appeared on the front of his tilma. The bishop immediately ordered the construction of a church dedicated to the "Virgen de Guadalupe" at the crest of Tepeyac hill.

Juan Diego returned his uncle’s house, and the Virgin appeared to him a final time and cured his uncle.

Today, December 12th is a national holiday in Mexico and is observed with pilgrimages to the shrine which houses Juan Diego tilma, special masses, ceremonial dances, and offerings at altars made in her honor.

It's begining to look a lot like Xmas!!!

2009-12-08T12:16:00.000-08:00

So I was reading some of the emails I get on a daily basis with hmm info about this and that, and I really liked this project! Now that I have been laid off :( I have time to do projects with my kiddos. I wanted to share this one with you all since I think it's so adorable.

Here is the link to it with instructions and all, I will post some pix of our own ones once we do them.

http://www.parents.com/holiday/christmas/crafts/christmas-kid-crafts/?page=10

Have fun doing them, and if you do please do share the pix!!!

All moved in...

2009-12-05T23:18:00.000-08:00

So finally we are all moved in...
Boy was it a hassle to make this move. Before we had gone from a studio to a 1 bedroom apartment, then to a 2 bedroom triplex, then to a 3 bedroom house, and now we are back to a 2 room place. I ended up selling quite a few stuff, and even then it was such a hassle to do this move. But now finally we are all settled in. Now we get to enjoy the holidays with our family here and wait to see what happens.

Still no word about our case, so at the moment we are just living that in the back of our minds, and will just relax and spend a very good Xmas with our loved ones here, and next year que sea lo que Dios quiera. For now we are here and will treasure every moment that we are here:).

So now to my lil project I've got..... I was really sick with a cold last week and with the stress of the move and all I stopped taking the pills to loose weight, but I still managed to loose some weight woo whoo!!!!
So I will get back on them and hopefully will be able to loose mucho mas!
Phentermine forums at PhenForum.com

So here it goes....

2009-11-21T02:05:00.000-08:00

I took the first pill on Thursday the 18th before I went to sleep, this one you take at night and I guess it works all night so when you wake up yeah you guessed right hehe you go potty and it cleans your stomach. The next morning I took the Size 0 pill which you take 1/2 an hour before you eat breakfast, well I did like I was told and so far..........

48 hours later I have lost 2 lbs :)

So being that I am a big girl to begin with I am staring off with my goal of loosing 10% of my weight. Ofcourse I would love to losse more like 50% BUT I do have to start somewhere no???

So here goes my journey once again.

Phentermine forums at PhenForum.com

I will NEVER be a size 0...

2009-11-18T14:11:00.000-08:00

Ok ok so I went to far there hehehe. But honestly it's the same if I say size 0

or size 10:( .....

I really believe I will never be able to loose the weight! Even though well when I was gone those 4 months I did manage to loose 50 lbs. BUT well that was easy to do there as jail food is NOT the best and I had nothing better to do all 23 hrs that I was confined so I would excersice, something I haven't done since I've been out, and that my friends is why I gained 30 lbs back ekkkkkkkkkk!!!!

So every Tuesday night I sit & watch the biggest looser and seriously I get all motivated for the whole 2 hrs the show runs and tell myself hey if i lost those 50 lbs in those 4 months, and these people are lossing that and then sum in less time then I sure can do it too. But then here comes Wed. morning and all motivations is gone.

So anywho yesterday I saw a posting on craigglist that offered a free sample for some natural pills to loose weight and so I emailed the posting.

The girl came and dropped off a sample of pills so we will see how it goes.

Still no word yet!

2009-11-16T13:10:00.000-08:00

So it is said that no news is good news right??? Well not knowing is the worst ever! It's been 3 weeks already since we went to hubby's court hearing. And the judge had his decision made and said he would mail it to us...

so far nada, zilch, nothing, non niente!!!!

I just wish we knew already so we can either be all relaxed or seriously be all stressed out!!!

2009-11-14T13:15:00.000-08:00

So we decided that while we wait for what ever the outcome is we will move out of our home, into a different home where the rent will be less, BUT so will the space. I will need to get rid of a lot of stuff, so thank God for craigslist hehehe! I've been posting like crazy most of the items I will need to get rid of and we've been having sales every weekend for the past 3 weeks. We already got rid of the big items we needed to get rid off like our China Hutch, or Dinner Hutch, a desk, 2 sofa chairs, and lots more. But I still do have lots more to get rid of, we are going from a 3 bedroom, 2 bath, living room, dining room, laundry room, kitchen, and 2 car garage to a 2 bed, 1 bath 1 sm. kitche no car garage place :(. So saying that YES there was a lot to get rid off. Oh and to top it off we are moving upstairs agh!!! the hassle of moving everything upstairs! So let's just hope that we do end up staying here.

Dia de Los Muertos/Day of the Dead

2009-11-02T00:00:00.000-08:00

Las culturas prehispánicas de Mesoamérica creyeron que la vida fue un sueño. Al morir se despertaba. La muerte era un escape del sufrimiento diario y de los problemas. Como la muerte era inevitable, no se le temía.

Durante los tiempos precolombinos, se creía que el difunto hacía un viaje largo y peligroso por nueve mundos antes de llegar a la región de Mictlán reinado de Mictlantecuhtli y Mictlancuatl, el rey y la reina. El viaje específio dependía de la profesión que se ocupaba durante la vida. Los guerreros que morían en el combate iban a Tonatihilhuac, el mundo del sol. Las mujeres que morían en el parto iban a Cihuatlampa, la región de las mujeres. El dios de la lluvia Tláloc llamaba a todos que murieron a causa del agua al Tlalocán, el paraíso del dios de la lluvia. Los niños iban a Chichihuacuauhco, el mundo del árbol nodrizo, donde los amamantaban con la dulce leche producida por los árboles mientras esperaban volver a nacer.

El viaje de los muertos duraba cuatro años, durante el cual el alma pasaba por desiertos y montañas. Era imposible cruzar el río al final del viaje sin la ayuda de un perro. Esto explica por que se encuentran los restos de perros en las tumbas. También al poner jade en la boca del muerto aseguraba que el muerto llegara en paz.

El festival de la muerte se deteminó por el calendario solar azteca. Los guerreros eran honrados durante el festival de Quecholli. Este decimocuarto mes coincide con noviembre del Calendario Juliano.

Los conquistadores españoles vinieron por oro y tierra y a establecer el cristianismo. Trajeron con ellos un nuevo concepto de la muerte; el concepto del bien y el mal. Creyeron en el concepto del día del juicio final, el cielo, y el infierno, lo cual era muy diferente del concepto de la muerte a parte de los indígenas. Los españoles se dieron cuenta de esto y permitieron que observaran sus creencias, con el fin de tener una mezcla de lo católico con lo indígena.

El Día de Todos los Santos, el primero de noviembre, es una celebración de la Iglesia Católica Romana. El Día de los Fieles Difuntos, el 2 de noviembre, es un día para rezar por las almas de los cristianos bautizados que están en el purgatorio. Estos dos días ocurren al mismo tiempo de Quecholli. Por eso durante las celebraciones se ve una mezcla de costumbres católicas e indígenas. Se cree que el Día de los Muertos las almas regresan para visitar a sus parientes y amigos en la tierra. Por el mes de octubre se empiezan las preparaciones para darles el bienvenido.

En casi todos los pueblos hay calacas de muchas formas. Panaderías y dulcerías preparan pasteles en forma de calacas y calaveras. El papel picado con diseños de calacas cuelga desde los techos. El amarillo dorado de las flores cempazuchitl está por todas partes como decoración de las ofrendas y tumbas. En cada casa hay ofrendas para que el alma se sienta cómoda en casa. Allí hay juguetes, comida, y bebidas. Además hay fotos y velas. El primero de noviembre regresan las almas de los niños, los angelitos. Las de los adultos regresan el 2 de noviembre.

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Pre-Hispanic cultures of Meso-America viewed life as a dream. It was believed that in dying did one awaken. Death offered a release from daily suffering and problems. Since death was inevitable, it was never feared.

In pre-Hispanic times it was believed that the dead made a long and dangerous journey through nine different underworlds before reaching Mictlán which was ruled by Mictlantecuhtli and Mictlancuatl, the god and goddess of the world of death. The afterworld to which a dead person would travel depended on the occupation held during life. Warriors dying in combat went to Tonatihilhuac, the place of the sun. Women dying in childbirth, went to Cihuatlampa, the region of the women. The rain god Tlaloc called anyone whose death involved water to Tlalocán, the paradise of the rain god. Children went to Chichihuacuauhco, the land of the wet-nurse tree, where they suckled from the milk-dripping trees while waiting to be reborn.

The journey of the dead lasted four years, taking the soul across a series of deserts and mountains. It was impossible to pass over the great river at the end of the trek without the aid of a dog. This is why remains of dogs or clay-sculpture relics often were found at burial sites. Also by placing a jade ornament in the mouth of the dead would ensure that the jaguar would allow him to enter in peace.

The festival for celebrating death was governed by the Aztec calendar. Warriors were honored during the fourteenth month at a festival called Quecholli. This fourteenth month coincides with November on the Julian calendar.

The Spanish conquistadores came to the New World looking for gold and land, and to establish Christianity. They brought with them a new concept of death; the concept of good and bad. They believed in a final judgement day, heaven, and hell, which was quite different from the view of death held by the native population. As the Spanish became aware of the native customs honoring death they permitted them to continue thus creating a religion mixed with Catholic beliefs and indigenous practices.

All Saints' Day, November 1, is a celebration of the Roman Catholic church. All Souls' Day, November 2, is a day to pray for the souls of departed baptized Christians believed to be in purgatory. These two dates occur at the same time as the celebration of death during Quecholli. Thus the celebration mixed Catholic and native practices regarding death. It is believed that on the Day of the Dead, the deceased are given divine consent to visit with their relatives and friends on earth. Starting around the middle of October, preparations are made to welcome home the souls of the dead relatives.

In most Mexican towns, skeletons are seen in all shapes and forms. Bakeries, candy shops prepare special treats in shapes of skeletons and skulls. Papel picado is hung from the ceilings with cutouts of skeletons. The golden-orange petals of the cempazuchitl flower, similar to a marigold, are seen everywhere decorating altars and graves.

In most homes altars are setup to welcome home the soul of the dead relative. On the altar are the favorite toys, food, and drinks. Photographs and candles are also included. On November 1, the souls of children are honored. The adult souls return home on November 2.

Dia de todos los Santos/All Saints Day

2009-11-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

El Día de Todos Los Santos es una solemnidad cristiana instituida en honor de Todos los Santos, conocidos y desconocidos, para compensar cualquier falta a las fiestas de los santos durante el año por parte de los fieles.

En México, donde se conjuga con el 2 de Noviembre el cual se festeja el día de los muertos, se hacen ofrendas en las tumbas para dar a los fallecidos generalmente comida, bebidas ,flores y cosas que les gusten, que se quitan el día 2 por la noche, permitiendo de esa manera, que los fallecidos disfruten la noche del primero de Noviembre de sus ofrendas.

November 1 is celebrated throughout the Catholic world as Día de Todos Santos, or All Saints Day, to honor all the saints, known and unknown, of the Catholic faithful. Every day of the year has its own saint or saints, but there are more saints than calendar days, and this one major holy day honors them all, including those who had died in a state of grace but had not been canonized.

All hallows eve...

2009-10-31T23:30:00.000-07:00

A year ago this day I was super dupper depressed being that hubby was still detained around this time.

Thank God this time he is home with us and we where able to take the kiddos out trick or treating like past years.

Here is a couple of pix of that day!

Coco~Tirrin

Julian~Julissa

Julian & Julissa

Me & Hubby

Girls night out!!!

2009-10-31T13:48:00.000-07:00

So tonight hubby stayed home with the kiddos so I could go out with my buddy Eva! I wanted to go out to Paddy's but being the fact that I hadn't gone out in years I forgot to take my id with us, so they didn't let us in. We ended up going to Bombays and had a blast!

Eva ~ Coco

Missing my Daddy!!!

2009-10-30T11:56:00.000-07:00

So this year was my daddy's 10th anniversary of being gone. He passed away on August 15, 1999. But due to the fact that his body wasn't found until the 17th his death certificate says his last day was the 17th. It was and has been very hard to live without him. We all miss him so much! There has been occasions when I totally feel his spirit is here with us. Like when we had our marriage blessed, I totally felt his hand on my shoulder. I know that was him.

Well here we are, a couple of days before "El Dia De Los Muertos." This is my first time doing an altar for him. I plan on making this a new tradition for our family. Here are a couple of pix:

San Judas Tadeo

2009-10-28T08:00:00.000-07:00

El dia 28 de Octubre, se le otorga y honra el dia a San Judas Tadeo y a continuacion les presentamos para que conozcamos un poco mas de la biografia, cronicas y vida de este Santo.

"Judas" es una palabra hebrea que significa: "alabanzas sean dadas a Dios". Tadeo quiere decir: "valiente para proclamar su fe"

Después de la Última Cena, cuando Cristo prometió que se manifestaría a quienes le escuchasen, Judas Tadeo le preguntó por qué no se manifestaba a todos. (Gran sensibilidad la de este Santo). Cristo le contestó que Él y su Padre visitarían a todos los que le amasen: "Vendremos a él y haremos en él nuestra morada" (Juan, 14, 22-23).

San Judas Tadeo es uno de los santos más populares a causa de los numerosos favores celestiales que consigue a sus devotos que le rezan con fe.

Agh!!!!!!! What's next?????????

2009-10-26T19:47:00.000-07:00

Ok so here is how our day went, his court hearing was at 1pm. There was a few cases on for this day & that time. The 1st case was a lady who had no lawyer, they gave her another court date for Feb 2010, then after her they called this one couple who had a lawyer BUT their lawyer wasn't there, and they were all like wait our lawyer isn't here, and the IJ told them that he knew that I guess the lawyer called them the court to say he wasn't able to be there so the IJ rescheduled the next court date till October of next year! I was like hopefully they give us a next court date till then too so we can do time here, but no that wasn't our case, they called my hubby next and we were like wait our lawyer isn't here but the IJ didn't wanna hear it, he said he had reached a decision already BUT being that our lawyer wasn't here he was changing the next hearing till Feb. 2010. That he would send a letter to our lawyer in the next couple of weeks with his decision. And he knew that the other side was going to apeal but didn't give in to which side he was in favor of, wether us our them so we shall wait for another few weeks till we know. So once we get the letter and all goes well in Feb. our case will close, BUT if it doesn't go in our favor we will know in a few weeks and will be able to decide wether we will keep on appealing it or not and we will have till Feb to decide. So thank you all for having us in your prayers I will keep you all posted. God Bless you all!

Less than a week till next court...

2009-10-20T14:41:00.000-07:00

Oh God!!! Here I am @ work trying NOT to think about our comming court date, kuz when I do I stress the h... out!!! This is soooooo frustrading, I am so scared of what will happen if we loose. Our lawyer says everything looks good, that No he can't promise me it will work out but it does look good. I tell everyone I am prepared for what ever comes, I try to seem like I'm all calm and all but who am I trying to kid!! I am a freaking wreck!!! I am so scared! Even though hubby's been out fighting his case, and working we still haven't been able to save money for we have to be paying off the lawyer fees, our car & truck, rent, bills, babysitter, all that that needs to be taken care off. Now the lawyer says worst case scenario if we loose, hubby will get about 120 days before he self deports, but what if he don't??? God I don't wanna think about that! We need to win, for our kids sake. Aghhhhh!!!!!!!! I am so stressed! So many plans that we have for our future here and now they are all on hold. God please help us!

You and me we used 2 be together....

2009-10-15T14:27:00.000-07:00

Awww mine & Kelly's song :)!!! So finally today after 34 days of her being out hehehe I get to see her .............

I have missed her so much, and really I can't believe it took us this long to see each other, when we do live close by.

I love this girl so much~~~~~~~~~~~>>>>

I am so glad that I got to meet her and spend all those days & nights with her ;)~

24/7 baby or more like 48/14 hehehe

Anywho the tittle to this blog is based on a song by No Doubt that we would sing to each other, and on the day that I was released she sang it to me :) I love you Kel & I will always be here for you, my lovely wifey. MUAHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

To be or no to be... to have or NOT to have.... These are def. the ?'s

2009-09-30T11:42:00.001-07:00

Well Saturday night I was as always trying to catch up on the blogs I am following... And oh my it really got me thinking :(

Here I was Saturday morning going about my usual Saturday morning routine, took the kids to cathechism and left to see some yard sales.... I was so excited kuz I found a doggie stroller for Bimbo for only 10 bucks (what a deal) kuz it's in real good condition practically new, and those run for about 70 bucks new.

Anywho I got that and then I found some Xmas decorations, as anyone who knows me knows I really don't need any more Xmas decorations I already have tons! But ofcourse i bought them... I love decorating for any holiday, specially for Xmas.

So I go about my day....

Then there I was late at night reading the blogs when I go to Melissa's blog (Living on Refried Dreams) and there I was crying & crying.... This last post really hit me hard. I love all of her post, she writes in a way that makes me feel like I am there actually seeing with my own eyes what she's writting about, living what she's living...

So she talks on this posting about the change in life from living here in the states to moving to Mexico, she mentions how when she was here in the states she had lots of Xmas decorations and well how different todo es, how material things sgouldn't matter that much to us, and well it all got me thinking about everything, if we loose our case and have to relocate to Mex I'm gonna have to get rid of most our belongins and well I must admit that really saddens me a lot, even when I know it's just material stuff that I can do with out, and if we where to win our case :) it got me thinking how we don't need all that material stuff how even if we get to stay I need to just get rid of a lot of stuff & be happy knowing that what's really importnant is not how much you have (money wise, decorations, all that) si no what's importnant is that we are healthy and together as a family UNIDOS!

Mis Kelly Ann is home Yipeeeeeeee!!!!

2009-09-17T12:57:00.001-07:00

So here we are it's Monday Sept. 14th. The wifey is finally home! Hehehe! She got out last Friday, I can't wait to see her, after having spend 71 days together for 24hrs everyday and know not seeing her for almos 5 months, I must admit I really have miss her. It's about time I get a dose of my Kelly Ann :)~ I love you honey, can't wait to see you!

Counter Appeal

2009-09-08T13:36:00.000-07:00

Friday evening I get home and see a package from our lawyer :)~

It is the counter appeal he filed for us, and let me tell you Alleluya!!! I've got sooo much hope now. He specefies on all the diferent ways why it SHOULD NOT be considered an aggarvated felony! Hopefully this all works for us. Please keep on praying for us. We will see when we go to our next court on Oct. 26th.

Jenny's Sentencing

2009-08-30T21:49:00.000-07:00

Well today is Sunday the 30th of August, 3 more days for Babygirls sentencing :( Even though I cannot afford to take time off I will defenetly take the morning off to go to her sentencing as I don;t know when I will be able to see her again, in a couple of weeks she will be sent up north to Chowchilla and I doubt I will be able to drive all the way overthere to see her. I really am sad, and honestly scared for her pues it's gonna be more than likely 6 yrs she will be gone. May God watch over her always. I love you Babygirl! Always & Forever!

Julissa"s 5th Birthday

2009-08-24T21:33:00.000-07:00

So here we are yet another party, when I know we should be saving every little penny we can, for we don;t know what is going to happen come October :( But then again we can't let the day go by unnoticed for our lil one. Thank God we have family that helps us out! Grampa Moises chipped in 4 the chicken, abulita Gloria bought the cake & did some rice & some jellos. I had already done some in lil spongebob cups, hence it was a Spongebob Bikini Bottom Party! Maggie did the potatoe salad & some rice. Julissa had a blast, origanally we were not going to have nada since she wanted a bike, and well we couldn't afford both a bike & a party, pero gracias a sus tios Pedro & Martina (they gace her the bike) we was able to have a lil something 4 her. She got quite a few gifts of Hello Kitty so now shes says ke pa next birthday she wants a Hello Kitty party hehehe ay estos kids!

Case Appealed

2009-08-03T11:38:00.000-07:00

So the DA from Immigration had until August 1st to appeal our case... and they did :(
I'm so afraid of the unknown, with the crisis how it is I really wish I knew what is going to happen, if we are going to loose the case, then we really need to look for a cheaper place to live, so we can finish paying off our debts, and save some money before it happens. And if it is going to work out then not give up our place, kuz I really like it there. I will be going to see our lawyer next week to see what we need to do know. God help us please.

Happy Birthday to my Babygirl Jenny

2009-07-31T14:57:00.000-07:00

I really was hoping and praying that she would of been released by now. That her trial would of gone thru and she would have won, but at the last minute she decided to take a deal, and now is looking at getting 6 yrs. It really sucks kux today, her 21st birthday not only does she have to spend in locked up, but I believe she's in the hole. I love and miss you so much mi niña preciosa. Hopefully the time goes by quick and you are able to be with your loved ones soon. Te kiero mucho mi niña! Always & Forever.

Finally the Star Wars Party

2009-07-04T22:24:00.000-07:00

Finally Julian was able to celebrate his Birthday! We didn't have a big party for him, again i will mention this the economy had a lot to do with it, pero he sure did have a lot of fun!

Happy 7th Birthday Julian

2009-06-27T18:13:00.000-07:00

So today is my baby boys 7th birthday! We were supposed to have a Star Wars Birthday party for him... pero we had to postpone due to the fact that we took him to the dentist and he had 2 teeth pulled (OUCH) I know what kind of mother am I that takes him to the dentist on his birthday. But, the reason it happened this way was because I got a call from the dentist office yesterday that they had an opening and that if I took him they would waive the $180 I had to pay, so siendo how the economy is at the moment I had to do it this way, pero primero Dios we will celebrate him next Saturday. As you can see in his pix that his cheeks are all swollen. Pobresito.

2009-06-22T11:13:00.001-07:00

Ok so it's been sooooo long since I've posted. Between being gone for about 4 months, and then when I was finally back being busy @ home & work. I haven't really been able to make time to get on here and post. Even though I have had a lot going on. So I might just backtrack and add stuff later on. For now let's worry about right now hehehe!

Well my mother in law (MIL) left on Saturday. It was a very bittersweet moment. I know that she left with NOT the best memories of me, but I also know that she will remember the good old days, before all the drama happened. When we used to live in peace. Way before all the gossips, chisme, shit talking crap. The good thing that she knew the old me, way before all the drama and all. Seriously I know a lot of people think I'm a real bitch, but like I've always said I can be the sweetest person or the meanest bitch. I treat people as they treat me, no ifs ands or butt's. It is what it is.

I am sad about her leaving kuz of my kid's, they were so used to her, since Julian was 8 months old, she had been here. So when Julissa was born she was here, and the kids are so used to her. And well even though hubby really didn't spend time with her a lot, I know it hurts him kuz she's his mother and he loves her.

Se Vende Un Corazon

2009-06-11T14:08:00.000-07:00

Se vende un corazon usado,porque ya no lo quiero componer,tan solo una vez lo han maltratadopero ha sido un golpe muy bien dado,muy lastimado lo han dejado esta vez.Si me lo compran no quiero reclamos,por eso en este aviso de ocasionles digo que es un corazon usado,el que lo quiera de segunda manoes muy humano un riesgo ha de correr.

Happy Mothers Day

2009-05-09T14:01:00.000-07:00

Tengo mucho ke agradecerle a mi kerida madre. Claro lo primero y mas importante eske el ke me alla traido a este mundo, se ke sufrio mucho para consevirme y mucho mas a sufrido por lo mal portada ke e sido. Pero aun asi siempre me a kerido y a estado a mi lado en las buenas y en las malas! I LOVE YOU AMA!!!
Me encontre esto en un sitio y me facino...
aunke no realmente me a sucedido ay va....

Mi madre me enseño:

RELIGIÓN.- "Mejor reza para que esta mancha salga de la alfombra".
LOGICA.- "¡¡ Por que yo lo digo, por eso ... y punto!!"
IRONIA.- "Sigue llorando y te voy a dar una verdadera razon para que llores"
SER AHORRATIVA: "Guardate las lagrimas para cuando yo muera"
OSMOSIS: "Cierra la boca y come"
CONTORSIONISMO.- "Mira la suciedad que traes detras de las orejas".
FUERZA DE VOLUNTAD.- "Te vas a quedar ahi sentando hasta que te termines las espinacas"
METEOROLOGIA.- "Parece que un huran paso por tu cuarto"
HIPOCRESIA.- "Te he dicho una y mil veces que no seas exagerado"
CICLO DE VIDA.- "Te traje a este mundo y te puedo sacar de él"
VENTRILOQUIA.- "No me rezongues, callate y contestame: ¿Por que lo hiciste?ODONTOLOGÍA.- "Me vuelves a contestar y te voy a sacar los dientes de una bofetada"
RECTITUD.- "Te voy a enderezar de un solo guantazo"
Nunca podre pagarle lo que me enseño.

Happy Birthday & Welcome Back 2 Me

2009-04-20T10:32:00.000-07:00

So I am sooo happy to be back home :) This picture was taken Sunday April 19th, I just came back home yesterday and since my birthday was on the 16th we had a little get together to celebrate my birthday & welcome back. Look at my Julissa how tall she got, her hair grew oh so much too. And my Julian he's taller too. I am so glad everything went well and that I'm able to be back home. So my buddies came over to see me I missed them all so much. It was really good to see them all & be able to spend time with all my loved ones. Como dicen por hay cuando cais en el hospital o la carcel ay saves bien quien son tus true friends. I love you chikas!

2 weeks left

2008-12-15T09:52:00.000-08:00

So here we are, closer & closer to THE DAY!!!

I really try not to think about it, I am just trying to enjoy the days as they come by, I will have a lot of time to stress once the day gets here. Mientras happy happy joy joy!

Time with family...

2008-11-15T22:22:00.000-08:00

So we went to celebrate Johanas birthday today. Notice how it's all girls except my boy. When I was pregnant from him, I would think "who is he gonna play with". Pues no avia more baby's in the family. So a little after more babies where born, pero as you can see mostly girls. In this pix estan from left to right: Julian 6, Yesenia 2, Julissa 4, Yesenia 4, and the birthday girl Johana 5. Being that Julian loves to take pictures he took this picture of hubby & me. Aren't we the cutest couple of all....

Mass for El Señor Del Monte

2008-11-09T20:10:00.000-08:00

So as promised to El Señor del Monte, we attended the mass they had in his honor today. We left the house about 10am because I wanted to get there early so I could pay my manda. Which was to walk in the rodillas. So we get there around 11:10am. There is a mass going on, so we wait around for that one to be over with. I see this lady get there with a beautiful basket with non-perishable food, and I tell her ke I didn't know we had to put the food in a basket, and that the bags of pasta I had bought for the kids to give de ofrendas was on a regular grocery bag. She tells me not to worry that it's the thought that counts, so I just have the kids walk with the bag down the aisle when its time to give the ofrendas. I know now for next time. Because trust me there will be next time, every year from now on si Dios me da licensia we will be heading out there for the yearly mass they do for him. So as we are entering I walk in on my knees, man was that painful, pero aun asi I get all the way to the altar, with my kids and hubby next to me. The whole mass was so beautiful, they had mariachi and dansantez. The father explained very well everything to be known about the Juramento and all. He was reading off the novena book, like the one I have that Griselda gave me. When it was time for the ofrendas to be taken to the front Julian was so embarrassed as it is he is very shy. Nothing like me :)~

Happy Happy Joy Joy

2008-11-08T12:20:00.000-08:00

Sooooo here it goes, I was told by Matt that court was @ 10:30am. So I pick up my mom and brother @ 8:15 am, from there we pick up Socorro and head out there. By the time we get there it's about 10:10am. As we are getting checked in I see Matt comming out. I get very sad because I think "Oh my court is over and I didn't even get to see my honey." So Matt has a big O smile on his face and tells me "You should be a very happy woman!" So I ask what happened? He says he was able to get a bond for Isrrael, oh my God I just started crying I was so happy. My mom is all like "Ke paso mija ke dice" So we tell her and she starts crying too. We are all hugging Matt. Gracias Sr. Del Monte! Ahora si te cumplire mi promesa! So there starts our journey hahaha to try to do all we needs to do for the bond ASAP. We drive back to Santa Paula to drop off mom and Socorro, then brother and I drive to Oxnard to meet up with my father in law. We end up getting to Los Angeles at 2:10pm. We are told it's too late to process anything so we have to come back tomorrow. By the time they tell us this it's about 4 om already, so we drove back home. By the time we get home it's about 7 or 8pm.

.... Next morning at 6:00am we leave home, we get to LA around 8am. By 10:30 the bond is paid and all the paper wprk on this side is taken care off. So we drive to Lancaster, by the time we get there it's 12pm. We stop by to eat, then head out to the Metrolink. We are there from 1pm till 7pm when he finally gets dropped off there. It is soooooooo wonderful to finally be able to hug, kiss, and hold him. I really do love my baby daddy! So finally after 78 days & nights, we where able to be together again. The kids, oh the kids get so excited when they see him. In the end all this wait paid off kuz again we are all together, Gracias Diosito!

Señor Del Monte ayudanos por favor....

2008-11-05T22:36:00.000-08:00

So here I am, just finished el novenario de el Señor del Monte. Dicen que es muy milagroso, y pos tengo Fe' en el, pues si me dieron la extension ke tanto estava esperando. Le avia prometido that if Isrrael was out by the 9th, ke es kuando le van hacer su misa that we would all go to mass in Los Angeles, and I would go de rodillas walking hasta el altar. If he is out, and if he is not we would still go to Mass and the kids would take their offering, pero I would walk in there. So let's hope for some kind of miracle de aqui al Sunday. Ayudanos Señor del Monte. Tu eres milagroso y todo lo puedes.

Waiting for that call..

2008-11-05T11:06:00.000-08:00

So I was really hoping that today everything would be taken care off. I had spoken with Matt yesterday, and he told me it was best if I didn't go to court. That he would call me as soon as he was out of there. So this morining after I took Julian to school I went to church to go visit with El Santisimo, for a while. After that I came to work, my mom called about 9:25am to ask if I had hear anything yet. So I told her ke nada yet. Five minutes after she called Matt calls, but dummy me didn't hear the call comming in. So when I notice the call I called him back. So he says that the case was continued due to the fact that the DA really isn't happy with having the probation terminated as he has only been on it for a few months. So now we have to wait till next Thursday to see what happens. So being the chillona that I am, after I get off the phone I start crying. All I can think is that if they didn't say no, and are reviewing it 1 more week, maybe there really is hope. All we can do now is hope & keep on praying. Lord, help us please.

Nuevo Presidente...

2008-11-05T09:11:00.000-08:00

El candidato demócrata Barack Obama fue elegido presidente de Estados Unidos este martes y entró en la Historia como el primer Africo Americano en llegar a la Casa Blanca, al derrotar a su rival republicano John McCain. Obama nació el 4 de agosto de 1961 en Hawai, de un padre negro de Kenia y una madre blanca de Kansas. Está casado con Michelle Obama. Tienen dos niñas: Malia, de 10 años, y Sasha, de siete. Obama asumirá la presidencia el 20 de enero de 2009.

Trunk Treat...

2008-11-01T09:56:00.000-07:00

So here we are, ready to go trunk or treating! This is the 4th year we go to this one church. It's a Christian Church, and what they do is they have people from their church come and park in the parking lot and they have games for the kids, then they give them candy. Beats going from house to house, here we go from car to car. The kids love it. They also have a jollie jumper for the kids.

Tooth Ache

2008-10-31T11:50:00.001-07:00

So Maggie has a mean tooth ache. It's been bothering her since yesterday. She drank a tea that I told her to take and it went away right away. But, today it's back again. I have endured that kind of pain, so let me tell you the ones that have never felt it are oh so very lucky. Because that pain is one of the worst pains anyone can ever feel. I would put it in the same category as ear ache, and of course LABOR pain. Really really bad pain.

So the tea I gave her is made up of Cinnamon, Orange Peel, Cloves, Blackberry Leaf, Allspice, Fennel, Ginger, Cardamom, Aloe Blossoms, Gymnema Sylvestre, and Chamomile. So all morning today she had been complaining about the pain, and again I gave her another teabag, and as soon as he took the first sip, Viola! The pain is once again gone. I feel like some kind of witch LOL, Giving her some kind of potion to make it all better. Anyone ever with any kind of pain I really do recommend this tea because it does work wonders. A friend of mine gave me some onetime, when I was really anxious, and nervous and it totally calmed me down. It's from a company called Forever Living. Here is their website: www.foreverliving.com the name of the tea is Aloe Blossom Herbal Tea.

Señor Del Monte

2008-10-31T11:42:00.001-07:00

So I have been rezando la novena al Señor del Monte. Dicen ke es muy milagroso, y siendo ke es venerado en Jocotepec, y ke pues hubby es de por akellos rumbos, tengo much afe de ke el nos ayudara. I already made him a promise that we will attend the mass they will have for him for his 175th Anniversary here in Los Angeles on Nov. 9th. I just hope hubby is back home by then so the 4 of us can go and thank him for all that he has done for us.

Got it done...

2008-10-30T18:23:00.000-07:00

So here I am, I did go thru with it. I know, I know, I had said never again would I get any man's named inked on me! But, he is not just any man, he is my husband, my babydaddy, el amor de mi vida, mi kompañero de toda la vida. So with that being said here is what I got done. You really can't tell what it is. Se ve muy blurry. But it says Isrrael. Oh I miss him so very much! Matt gave us a lot of hope, so know all we have to do is wait and see that hopefully he does get to come home soon. I really do love him.

Inked???

2008-10-30T14:44:00.000-07:00

So yesterday after work I went to the Ink place that Zack told me about. As I am driving thru the parking lot, I see this guy in the parking lot, then I realize that it is Zack! I had never seen him without his Fed Ex gear hahaha! So he tells me to go in an yell for ........... I forgot her name sowwie! So I yell for her and she comes out. All I gotta say is WOW she is such a hottie! I know I know, that is my OLD SELF talking. Anywho so I talk to her a bit, and set up an apointment to see her today. I had been considering getting my wedding band tattoed. Pero she says that the ink might run, so I am considering maybe getting hubbys name on my ring finger. Eventually I want to get something like 4 flowers that symbolize hubby, me, Julissa, and Julian. I am going to have her work on something for me. I also need to get the ones I already have either fixed, or covered. Hopefully soon I will have some pictures to post.

Gotta go kuz my appointment is in a few minutes!

Dragon & The Phoenix

2008-10-29T14:30:00.000-07:00

Read this somewhere...

2008-10-29T09:04:00.000-07:00

The seconds will tick, the days will turn to months,

& the years will pass, but my love for you will never end.

So true! I will always love you Tirrin!!!

Agony & Ecstacy

2008-10-28T16:40:00.000-07:00

.... Hmm so K visited today, we had a really nice visit. It is always nice seeing K. There's something about K that always makes me smile. We where reminicing about these past 4 years. I wish I could go more into detail, but I might regret it some day. So I will just leave it at that!!!

Those where the good old days!

What's it all about, this crazy love. How did our 2 worlds entwine.

How do I get into your life. How did you get into mine, I belong to someone else we know. Back when first we met Ohhhhh, we thought for fun 1 night together might be nice. Oh...oh...but fun turned into love for both of us. So now we pay forbidden lover's price. Oh, 'cause love like ours is never, ever free. You pay some agony for the ecstasy. Oh, love like ours is never, ever free. You got to pay some agony for the ecstasy, oh:oh:Nights when you're alone, you know that I Laid with someone else beside me Oh, but you love me still and I love you. You know I would no matter where I'd be Hey, but love like ours is never, ever free You got to pay some agony for the ecstasy Oh, love like ours is never, ever free We got to pay some agony if we wanna have ecstasy, oh...Hey, got to pay some agony If we wanna have an ecstasy, yeah And we need each other desperately, don't we, baby And I'll never from you be free, no, no So you'll have to do the leavin' me, yeah And you'll have to do the leavin' me, oh, baby' Cause I'm gonna pay the agony, yeah' Cause, oh, lovin' you is ecstasy, that's what it is And I'm willin' to pay the price, oh'Cause I'll make it a sacrifice, oh, yes, I will And I'll never, never, never, never, never, never, never be free From agony

Rey sin Reyna

2008-10-28T11:46:00.000-07:00

Tengo un castillo sin princesa para ke luchar con los dragones si escaaste tu del cuento tengo una corona sin su altesa y unas mil y una noches de extrañarte todo el tiempo ando en busca de una lampara ke me cumpla 3 deseos para pedirle ke vuelvas ke vuelvas ke vuelvas Por k este rey esta sin reyna y doy mi vida en recompensa

ella es mi oro no me importan los cambios por tu corazon porke este rey esta sin reyna y estoy muriendo de tristesa porke a mi cuento le hace falta k lo escribas con la tinta de tu amor vuelve te lo ruego por favor porque esta rey esta sin reyna... vivo en el pais de las tristesas ke me dio sus maravillas y la magia de tu reyno ando en busca de una lampara ke me cumpla 3 deseos para pedirle que vuelvas que vuelvas que vuelvas por que este rey esta sin reyna y doy mi vida en recompensa ella es mi oro no me importan los cambios por tu corazon por que este rey esta sin reyna y estoy muriendo de tristesa

por que a mi cuento le hace falta que lo escribas con la tinta de tu amor vuelve te lo ruego por favor porque esta rey esta sin reyna

I had court today....

2008-10-27T14:15:00.000-07:00

First of all, let me start by saying that last night I prayed, and prayed, and prayed. So this morning I was heading out to court I was calm, I knew my Lord was gonna help me out. So I get there and there is no sign of Matt, hmmm where are you Matt? You said you would be here for us...
.... So they let us in the court room, and still no sign of Matt. I go up to Jan's assistant and she tells me Jan is in trial and will not be here. So ofcourse I get skurred. She tells me not to worry as she is going to represent me. Thank God. She preceeds to tell me how much time I am requesting, and ofcourse I tell het that I am hoping for atleast 45 days, (Jan had told me if anything it would be 30 days, but ofcourse I have to aim high K-no?) So she says let's hope he gives you atleast 30.
Finally Matt getts here, he shows me a motion he filed for Isrrael. He truly went all out. I cried when I read it all. He really said it all in that 5 page letter. I hope the Judge really feels it too. So now we have to wait and see if Judge will expunge it.
Anywho so finally they call me, it is not Judge Clark; it's some other judge that doesn't know our case at all. Lord, help me please. So he tells me right off, that I have already gotten 3 extensions, what is it I am requesting now. We proceed to tell him that still no word of hubbys case, I say I want a stay till Dec 29th, know that's 2 months from know. He is hesitant and tells me that he will BUT that this is the last time I get another extension. That he doesn't want to see me in the courtroom again asking for the same thing.
Oh my thank you, thank you Lord. Now please help us out with hubbys case, please let them expunge the conviction. Let us be happy together again.

Daniel Calveti

2008-10-27T13:13:00.000-07:00

So last night I went to the Oxnard Performing Arts Center to see Daniel Calveti, he is a Salmista and Cantante. It was organized by El Centro Evangelistico Asamblea de Dios. It was all so beautiful. I just recently heard about him, thru radio Nueva Vida. When I heard he was going to be here, I was really excited, of all the songs they play in that station my favorite one is la de En Paz Me Acostare, and he is the one that sings it. It was so great! To be honest with you I was hesitant to go, I really don't like to be out and about with just me and the kids. But I knew that it would help me out with all that I am going thru, so I decided to go. Here's a few pictures:

It never fails, whenever I want to take video with my camera the battery dies. I wasn't able to record a lot but I did get pieces of my song :)

America vs Chivas

2008-10-26T17:07:00.000-07:00

So here it is once more el gran Classico!!!

I am a fan de America, so there for my children will be Americanista's too! Even though their dad & grampa are Chivistas! Y aunke pierdamos en las buenas y las malas Americanistas de por vida! Ajuassssssssssssssssss!!!

Julissa says her name is America Julissa Monetete! K cute!!! While I am at this let me say hello to America, the real America hehehe!

Tio Rica

2008-10-25T22:19:00.000-07:00

So after we get home from abuelitas, the kids get all excited because Tio Rica is there. He knows Julian loves Starwars, so he bought the kids some toys! Ke lindo, gracias tio Rica!!! My kids are very lucky, mas bien they are very spoiled. Since they are the first nietos, and the first sobrinos, they have always been so spoiled by they grandparents and tios. They are very lucky!

To be or not to be...

2008-10-25T21:00:00.000-07:00

So I get my kiddos ready and head out to SP, to go to mass with abuelita. We get there like 5 minutes late, thank God it wasn't full and we were able to find abuelita and sit next to her. After mass we head out to her house so the kids can see Cruzito & Extrellita. Here's a picture of them

While there abuelita and I start talking about religion, seems like lately that's all I can talk about :)...

So she tells me again that I am going to get confused... I tell her that I still am Catholic and do believe and love my Religion. But that going to Christian Services full fills my spirit in ways I had never felt before. I tell her I see nothing wrong with me going, as they pray for hubby and the deals we are going thru. Not that they don't in SP, because they also do. I tell her that over here they have taught me how to talk with God, not just to pray but to really have a conversation with him. I have a Bible my dad (RIP) had given me when I turned 15, and I've had it all these years, and never ever really read it. Now that is all I do, read, read, and read the Bible. I tell her that if I would of studied the Bible, and listened to Radio Nueva Vida before, that I would NOT have ever made so many bad choices I have made thru out my life. I told her I had spoken with Melba about that and she told me there's nothing wrong with me going to both services, that I was becoming a Charismatic Catholic.

Bake me a keki...

2008-10-25T18:12:00.000-07:00

So it's Saturday afternoon, and the kids want to bake a cake. Ever since we started watching Amazing Wedding Cakes they are so into baking, and decorating. I had bought a cake pan of a doll so I figured let's try it out. I was hoping to do it after I had bought some fondue to decorate it nice, pero ya saven how it is with kids, they want things done right there and then. So we proceed. Let me tell you it was kinda messy decorating it, but in the end it didn't come out that bad for being the first time we do one. I think I will eventually take the cake decorating classes to become and expert!

Is God talking to me???

2008-10-25T14:27:00.000-07:00

So last night as I was reading thru my Bible, I came across this section, First of all let me start by saying that I have 2 Bibles, my Catholic one that is in Spanish, and the other one called Power of the Praying Woman devotional Bible by Stormie Omartian. The reason I have 2 and I do read both is because, the English one, which by the way is Christian, has sections that show you where to go as you a feeling. So I like to look up in that one how ever I am feeling, or what ever I am going thru at the moment, and then I re read it in the Spanish one. Any who... So I read this section, where it said to pray to God, to talk to him ask him for what we need. But most important to listen, as he does talk to us, whether thru the Bible or anything around us. He will let us know one way or the other that he is listening to us. So before I went to sleep I asked him to PLEASE give me a sign, let me know that everything will be OK.

.... So the next morning I am off as my usual on the weekends, up early to make that 2 hour drive to go visit hubby. As I am driving past hubby's work place, to get on the freeway on the station Nueva Vida the lady there starts saying a verse from the Bible that goes as follows:::

"For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11

I just started crying when I heard that, is that maybe his answer to me???

Maybe just maybe.

Let's hope so!

No show at court???

2008-10-24T18:09:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I had called my attorneys office, to see about getting put on calendar to see about getting yet another extension. I was told by Jan's assistant that she would put me on calendar for Friday morning & I wouldn't have to be there because Jan would be there. So I left it at that and prayed that I would get that extension that I so very bad need. Needless to say I called Friday afternoon to see what had happened and was told that "NOTHING HAPPENED" Why? Who knows as they told me it could have been because I wasn't there (hello!!! I was told I didn't need to be there) or maybe because no one ever told Jan I was on calendar, therefore she never showed up!

.............. So that's why NOTHING happened!!!

So I leave Jan a message telling her how desperate I am, as No word on Hubby's case yet. She emails me back telling me that I will be on calendar Monday morning BUT she doubts I will get another extension, as I have already gotten 3! Well I wouldn't of even gotten any and would be almost done with my time if none of this would of ever happened!!! So she proceeds to tell me that maybe if Matt (hubby's attorney) has anything to show for his case, that maybe something can be done.

......... So of course I call Matt to see about it. He says he will work on a motion tomorrow (Saturday, what a great guy) so we should be ready on Monday to go to Judge Clark and see about both my case, and hubby's! All I can do know is pray, and pray and pray!

......... Can't wait for Hubby to call me so I can tell him the news about Mondays court!

Is one Religion better than the other???

2008-10-24T09:57:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I went all crazy with craigslist again & started posting some of my stuff. It sucks not knowing what's going to happen. Because I don't know what I should really get rid off, or even if I should get rid of anything. I am not about to sell my stuff for pennies, that is the # 1 reason why I didn't do a yard sale, because people who go to yard sales & I do say this from my own experience expect things to be really cheap. And I am not about to sell my stuff for cheap. It's all stuff that we have worked very hard to be able to have. If we are able to stay here, or we do end up going to Mexico, I am going to need my stuff. Hello!! We are going to still live somewhere K no?

So anyways back to my story. So this lady emails me about this one offer, & I email her back. On my signature from my email right under my name I have this saying:::

***Lord, Give me the kind of Faith that can move mountains in my life***
Matthew 17:20

Now the lady answers my email back by asking me this:::

Thank you. You are a Christian? Where do you go to church?

So here is the thing I am trying to get, I have also done this in the past. Now that I have been going to Christian services I see where this comes from. I have also caught myself asking people if they are Christians just by talking to them. You can totally tell by the way they talk. The voice is much calmer, their words much nicer. Why is it that us Catholic people don't use any Bible verses at all through our daily living? Why is it that Christians do? I am trying hard NOT to compare both religions, as I know that there is no right from wrong, as far as what religion you are. As it is the same God above all. But reading the Bible does help you open your eyes, see really the good from the bad. And learn to live the way He wants us to live. Now I keep on stopping myself from doing lots of things that I never even considered before as sins. It has really opened my eyes. Now I must say this I am Catholic, I was born and raised Catholic. Both my kids are baptized Catholic. I love both the churches I have attended. The Guadalupe Church that I grew up attending, and San Buenaventura Mission, that I now attend. But I also do love going to the Christian services on Thursdays. My mom says they are going to confuse me. I must say that I feel very comfortable in the Christian church, at the moment with everything I am going thru it helps me a lot. Como dice Jacinto eso es lo que me llena de espiritu. I have learned how to talk to God, how to thank God for all that he has given me, and specially how to accept everything that is coming my way.

En Paz Me Acostare

2008-10-23T13:31:00.000-07:00

I love this song! It's from a verse in the Bibble

Salmo 4: 8-9

En paz me acostaré

Y así mismo dormiré

Porque solo tú Señor me haces vivir confiado.

En paz me acostaré

Y así mismo dormiré

Porque solo tú Señor me haces vivir confiado.

¿Quién me libra del temor?,

Quién me quita la ansiedad

Si no eres tú?

¿Quién me abraza con su amor?,

Quién me da de su perdón

Si no eres tú?Señor…

En paz me acostaré

Y así mismo dormiré

Porque solo tú Señor me haces vivir confiado.

En paz me acostaré

Y así mismo dormiré

Porque solo tú Señor me haces vivir confiado.

Well where to begin...

2008-10-23T12:14:00.000-07:00

Should I start 32 yrs ago when I was born? Or 13 years ago when I met hubby?
Well I guess from the beginning, but not all detailed

or I will be here 4 ever & ever and ever...
I was born 32 yrs ago to a wonderful couple my momma and my papa!

When I came into this world they already had Jenny. She is 4 years older

than me. Two years after I was born, brother

Juan Carlos was born. This is a picture of him

when he was hmmm I think maybe about 3.

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Seven years after Juan was born my mom got pregnant. I remember the night hew was born, I was only 10 yeras old. But I do remember she was was walking back and forth while watching the novela. Don't remember what novela she was watching. Then we went to sleep, and next morning when we woke up she was gone. So daddy took us to the hospital, and thru a windo we were able to see him. He was the only newborn with hair the other ones were baldies. LOL. We got to choose his name and we decided on Oscar, daddy wanted Jesus, so mom named him Oscar Jesus. Here is a picture of him.

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I believe he turned 5 here. I actually baked the cake.

... Years later in 1995 I met my hubby.

We met in April of that year & moved in together soon after. We got married in 97.

In 1999 my father died, that was one of the worst days of my life.

R.I.P.

Jose Trinindad Manzo

06/14/47 - 08/17/99

In 2002 we had our firstborn Julian Jasiah. It took us seven years to be able to get pregnant. So finally when I came out we where really excited. I had been in treatment for 2 months y nada de nada. Hubby went to Mexico for 2 weeks, so I didn't take the treatment the 3rd month. Kuz I figured he's gonna be gone 2 weeks, no need for treatment. So he was back on Oct. 5th. Around Oct 27th I started feeling ill. I had a sharp pain on my side. I tought maybe it was my appendix. So I went to the Doctor to get checked, and holly behold! I was told I was pregnant! Wipeeeee!!!

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This picture of Julian was taken, when we had our marriage blessed. Isn't he a cutie??

So two years after Julian was born we had our daughter Julissa Monet. She was born oh so tiny, pero a como a crecido! She too was a blessing, because I thought I was only gonna be able to have 1 child, because I keep on telling God to please bless us with a child eveb if it was only one. So when I found out I was pregnant again. I was so excited. Here is a picture of her

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This picture was also taken on the day we had our marriage blessed. She totally is a mini me! Es tan corajuda, and oh my gosh than gritona, and she slams doors and all. I really have to work with her pa ke no sea tan asi. Mom always told me ke one day I would have my own children y todo lo ke e echo I will end up paying for. How skurry is that!

On June 16 2007 we had our Marriage Blessed.

Now other than when our children where born this was one of the most happiest days of my life!!!I had waited all my life for this day. Even though it was a extremely happy day for me, it was also a very sad day as my daddy wasn't here physically with us. But I know his spirit was there as it always is.