and so it's been a year now...

Dec 29, 2009.....

A year ago today I was scared, depressed, sad, did I mention scared? Last Dec 29 was my day to turn myself in... it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. I knew that it was something I had to do, well as they sy you play you gotta pay. And so it was so that I had to pay. I was scared more than anything because I did not know what was going to happen with my hubbys case while I was gone. As he had court in January while I was going to be locked up. I was really scared of what would happen if he were to be deported while I was serving my time. I had been sentenced to 180 days, out of that I knew I had to do atleast 120 days. It was very hard having to say good bye to my kids, as I knew I wouldn't see them in all that time. I didn't want them to see me in jail, or even to know I was there. All that time they thought I was working in Colorado.

I remember clearly that evening, hubby went to drop me off at 7pm, it was a Monday. They didn't take me in till 9pm, and they had me downstairs in booking till 9am the next morning. As soon as they took me upstairs to a cell I feel asleep and slept all day long, I tried to sleep all day & night kuz when ever I was awake all I would do is cry.

I was in a cell by myself until the beggining of Feb, all that time that I was alone I spent reading the bible & reading everything and anything that was available to me. That way my day would go by so fast. By this time hubby had gone to court and they had given him another court date for June, I was to be out by mid April, so I was able to relax and not worry about what would happen.

While there I meet quite a few girls, it is so sad to be locked up, but more sad to be locked up and not know when and if you will ever be out. I went in knowing that I would be out in fur months, but there are people there that are fighting their cases and don't even know when they will be out, if they will be at all. I always pray for all of them, and since I've been out I've been writting to them, and sending them cards on the holiday, and their birthdays. It is heartbreaking to go thru these holidays knowing that they are all still there, specially for the ones that have kids. I am no one to judge any of them, and wheather they commited the crimes they are there for or not, I will always be praying for them and writting to them. I do hope and pray that they get to come out soon to their families.

I got to come home to my family on April 18, 2009. That experience away from my kids & hubby really taught me to treasure what I have. All this drama that hubby and I are going thru has brought us closer & stronger. We know we got ourselfs where we are, we know we are not perfect, and we have learned from our mistake. A very costly mistake. One that we can never take back. We are paying for it, and probably will for the rest of our lives, But we are both strong and have gotten so far, and with God's help we will keep on going.

As of today we still have no word on his case. But we are very hopefull that things will work out in our favor. For we know God has a plan for us, and we are patiently waiting for it.

At a time of joy we are in sorrow

So it was Sunday night about 10:30 pm, I was on line reading some posts when I get a call on my cell. I check and see that it is hubby's cousin Paul. He never ver calls me so I knew something was up. I answer the phone and sure enough it is bad news, he tells me mi Julian had passed away. Mi Julian is my hubbys maternal grandfather. But honestly I loved him like if he was my own grandfather. We named my son Julian after him. I know that always when people pass everyone says so & so was such a great person, pero honestly truth be told Mi Julian was a great person.

It really saddens me that he passed away and we didn't get to see him. It had been 2 1/2 yrs since we had seen him. He was here in the states last in June of 07, he was here when we had our wedding blessed.

The saddest part of this all is that hubby couldn't go due to our case not being resolved yet. It killed me to see how upset hubby was due to this. Mi Julian would come often to the States to visit, and he would stay here for months at a time, but since 2007 he was not able to come back to visit.

He passed away in Jocotepec, and they had his service in Las Trojes, Jalisco. In all the 14 yrs I have been together with hubby, I have yet to go visit El Rancho! Now when I do I will for ever be saddend that I never went when Mi Julian was still alive. He used to love attending Los Torros, and I am sure if I had gone to Mex he would of taken me to see them May he Rest In Peace.

Mi Julian you will always be in our hearts!

We will miss you always!

Dia de la Virgen De Guadalupe

December 12th is an important date in our culture because on this date the Virgin of Guadalupe (La Virgen de Guadalupe) first made an appearance in 1531.

According to church historians, an indigenous Mexican named Juan Diego was walking past a hill called Tepeyac on the outskirts of the Spanish settlement what is now Mexico City, in the beginning of December 1531, when a vision of the Virgin Mary appeared. She instructed him to go to the Bishop (Father Juan de Zumárraga), and deliver her request that a church be built in her honor on the spot.

Juan Diego faithfully went to the Bishop, who dismissed his history and told him to come back the next day. The next day the Bishop asked him a number of questions about the vision of the Virgin Mary, and told him that he needed to bring some proof of her appearance.

Juan Diego return to the hill and asked the Virgin Mary to give him a sign. She said that if he came to the hill the next day, she would give him a sign for the bishop. However, Juan Diego’s uncle Juan Bernardino was on his deathbed, and Juan Diego stayed the entire day with him.

The next morning, Juan Diego left to look for a priest to administer last rites to his uncle, and encountered the Virgin on the road. She sent him to the top of the Tepeyac hill to gather flowers, even though roses didn’t grow there in December. On the hill Juan Diego gathered a bunch of roses, which he brought back to the Virgin Mary. She held them for a moment and then told him to bring them to the bishop. He wrapped them in his tilma (overcloak) woven of manta (a traditional natural fiber similar to linen) and carried them to the bishop. When Juan Diego unbundled the roses for the bishop, everyone was amazed to see that the image of the Virgin Mary had miraculously appeared on the front of his tilma. The bishop immediately ordered the construction of a church dedicated to the "Virgen de Guadalupe" at the crest of Tepeyac hill.

Juan Diego returned his uncle’s house, and the Virgin appeared to him a final time and cured his uncle.

Today, December 12th is a national holiday in Mexico and is observed with pilgrimages to the shrine which houses Juan Diego tilma, special masses, ceremonial dances, and offerings at altars made in her honor.

It's begining to look a lot like Xmas!!!

So I was reading some of the emails I get on a daily basis with hmm info about this and that, and I really liked this project! Now that I have been laid off :( I have time to do projects with my kiddos. I wanted to share this one with you all since I think it's so adorable.

Here is the link to it with instructions and all, I will post some pix of our own ones once we do them.

http://www.parents.com/holiday/christmas/crafts/christmas-kid-crafts/?page=10

Have fun doing them, and if you do please do share the pix!!!

All moved in...

So finally we are all moved in...
Boy was it a hassle to make this move. Before we had gone from a studio to a 1 bedroom apartment, then to a 2 bedroom triplex, then to a 3 bedroom house, and now we are back to a 2 room place. I ended up selling quite a few stuff, and even then it was such a hassle to do this move. But now finally we are all settled in. Now we get to enjoy the holidays with our family here and wait to see what happens.

Still no word about our case, so at the moment we are just living that in the back of our minds, and will just relax and spend a very good Xmas with our loved ones here, and next year que sea lo que Dios quiera. For now we are here and will treasure every moment that we are here:).

So now to my lil project I've got..... I was really sick with a cold last week and with the stress of the move and all I stopped taking the pills to loose weight, but I still managed to loose some weight woo whoo!!!!
So I will get back on them and hopefully will be able to loose mucho mas!
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